Buried Treasures

My plumber (who by this time is starting to feel like the painter guy from Murphy Brown!!) found some great old bottles yesterday... About 5 or 6 feet deep, it looks like a hole had been dug and trash dumped in it... There is 1/2 of what looks like an old shaving mug, pieces of a large crock, large pieces of an ironstone bowl that looks like it might have been part of a pitcher and bowl set, and the bottom half of a porcelain doll's face (a bit eerie, but cool anyway) I have the bottles on my counter in the kitchen, awaiting a good cleaning... I wonder how many years it has been since they have been in this house?
Probably before the current kitchen was even added on, judging by the looks of them... The first two rooms of my house were built in the late 1880's, the living room and my bedroom, the next three rooms added in 1915, the Son's room, the bathroom, and the diningroom which used to be the kitchen. The current kitchen was added in 1923.
One of the bottles is broken, but I saved it because molded into the glass it says "A. Trask's Magnetic Ointment"...LOL
I lived in this house as a kid, for about 5 years, and bought it from the people who bought it from my parents. The bottles are a neat link to some of the other people who lived in this house... I think these, and anything else we find interesting, will go into a small grouping as sort of a memorial to the people I share this space with.

Beautiful Sunday

Went out to lunch with Jeff yesterday. *sigh* I am so crazy about him...
Why can't I just tell Hawk to go to hell??

My back yard looks like the grand canyon. From the back edge of my house to the middle of the alley there is a trench, 4 feet wide, 8 feet deep.... The plumber is having to replace my entire sewer line... There is a HUGE pile of dirt right on top of my garden plot... I can't even get my garden started!! A big dump truck pulled up yesterday and left a whole truckful of sand... I REALLY don't want to see this bill!! I start to panic every time I look outside...

Other than that... It's a beautiful day... I just got off of work, (worked 7 am until 4 pm today after not leaving the store last night until 1 am after 10 hours) and I have the next two days off, which are supposed to be warm and beautiful. I'm going to hang out at home, do some housework, read a lot, take the Son to the park after school... can't wait!!

Update

Seems I haven't had much time recently. I broke my finger,(slammed it in a solid steel door at work) just the tip, and everything (including typing) takes a bit longer!
Haven't heard from Jeff *sigh*... Who knows what is going on there...
Hawk hasn't contacted me recently, either... But he will soon, I can feel it...
The few times I have been online, I have been hanging out reading a lot at The Cauldron one the message boards. Very interesting, I'm learning a lot there...

Well, since I don't have much else to say, will go for now...

Average weekend... More or less....

Jeff has some explaining to do.

He was supposed to be here Friday evening. (I passed up a date with a very sweet guy who came in at work all the time because I thought we were going out.) He didn't show, didn't call... Haven't heard from him all weekend. *sigh*
I called just this afternoon, left a message, no answer.

Oh well, I was pretty tired anyway, Friday night... He just should have had the decency to call, though.

Seeing the first lightning of the year tonight. Not here, but in the distance. Pretty cool... The Son is sitting on the front porch with popcorn watching the lightning...lol

The Son and I colored eggs today. (first day of spring!Happy Osatara to those of you who celebrate today) He has been having fun hiding them for me to find, and finding them when I hide them.
We worked in the yard yesterday, cleaning up the garden to get it ready to till, raking up everything in the yard. I had to trim my Ivy, and he and I both made wreaths that we hung up on the front porch to dry. They look very pretty.

Hawk hasn't sent me any more messages since we talked last week. He always lets things soak into my head pretty well before he makes contact again, LOL.
Have to go back to work tomorrow. *sigh* Had the weekend off, believe it or not... Two weekends in a row!!! The first assistant is leaving, so I am the first assistant now... Have two more tests to do and send in, then a "trainer" will come down from the home office to give me my final test, and then after passing all that I will get a raise. They have asked me to be in the manager training program already... I think I might, even though I don't want to be a manager right now.

Anyway...

Another quiz

Take the quiz: "Which Tarot Arcana are You? (women)"

High Priestess
Hidden influences at work, unrevealed future. Creative forces of the subconscious, the female side of the brain at work for the artist, poet and mystic. A woman of great intuition, inner illumination.

What kind of Fairy are you?

Take the quiz: "What Faery are you? (Beautiful drawings by Amy Brown!)"

.:Earth Faery:.
You are the Earth Faery. You love the outdoors and you're very intouch with yourself. You go outside whenever you can. You're very smart and people love your easygoing personality. Many people think you have natural beauty, too.

Wild Mustangs can now be slaughtered for horsemeat

RENO, Nev. - For the first time in more than a generation, the mustang — the very symbol of the American West — can be slaughtered for horsemeat.

In December, Congress repealed the 34-year-old ban on the slaughter of the wild horses that run free across the West. The move has brought a powerful backlash from activists, who want to reinstate full protection for the mustangs.

“It is really a slap in the face to the American people,” said Betty Kelly, co-founder of the horse protection group Wild Horse Spirit in Virginia City, Nev.

Acting on behalf of ranchers who say the horses eat forage needed by cattle, Sen. Conrad Burns, R-Mont., attached the amendment in December to a spending bill that President Bush signed into law.
Read more here...


Maybe to protect the Wild Mustangs, and preserve the Arctic National Wildlife Refuge at the same time, we should all go back to riding horses instead of driving cars...

Interesting

"Last week, as Prime Minister Tony Blair of Britain unveiled the commission on Africa's report to tackle poverty, Bob Geldof, the Live Aid star-turned-humanitarian, walked to the microphone with expletive-filled advice for how Mr. Blair and the British chancellor of the exchequer, Gordon Brown, should get the American president, George Bush, to step up to the plate on aid to Africa."


See OP-ED article here

Unbelievable...

"WASHINGTON -- The Senate voted Wednesday to open part of an Alaskan wildlife refuge to oil and gas drilling, with several lawmakers saying soaring gasoline prices highlighted the need to increase domestic energy production.

The vote in support of drilling in the Arctic National Wildlife Refuge was close -- 51-49. Further approvals will be required before exploration can begin. "

I can't believe this! (See articles, 1 & 2)

"But Bush has portrayed the exploration as critical to reducing U.S. dependence on foreign oil and stabilizing gasoline prices. "
R has worked in the oil industry for 30 years, and this is the biggest lie I have heard in a long time... Gas prices and the cost per barrel of oil have not kept in sync for several years. We are producing tons of oil, oil that is being stored while we buy oil from other countries.

" "Have we reached the point when it comes to America's energy security where we have no choice but to go into these areas that are so important and so pristine and engage in drilling and production techniques that will leave scars on the landscape forever?" asked Sen. Richard J. Durbin, D-Ill."

Obviously so.

Won't this look grand with oil derricks, piles of drill pipe and tubeing, muddy ruts created by big trucks, pits dug into the ground...Not to mention the air, water and solid polution created???

More interesting news bits...

This is comforting....

I remember some of those chemicals with labels from the 20's and 30's in my high school when I was there... Wonder if they are still there?!?

I'm glad this one was shot down...


This is interesting....

Death Valley

Check this out... Rare wildflower display in Death Valley


There hasn't been this many wildflowers in Death Valley in 50 years...

More pics here...

Isn't that beautiful... I love wildflowers!

New quiz - love this one!!

The answer to this quiz is so me it made me laugh out loud...lol


You speak eloquently and have seemingly read every
book ever published. You are a fountain of
endless (sometimes useless) knowledge, and
never fail to impress at a party.
What people love: You can answer almost any
question people ask, and have thus been
nicknamed Jeeves.
What people hate: You constantly correct their
grammar and insult their paperbacks.


What Kind of Elitist Are You?
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Hawk has some new plans for us... for me... He trains his subs in levels... the first level, oral, I passed... very well, I might add... other that female/female, I had a problem with that, and he let it go... for now.
Next level... anal.
We have never had any kind of intercourse, in the almost 4 years we have been involved. mainly because training keeps getting interrupted, we go months without seeing each other. Hopefully training will stay on track this time.
Sharing me with another male has happened, although if and when it happens again it won't be the same man. It was Hawk's best friend, and he has no real dominance in him... he just didn't get it. Not that he was in control, I listened to Hawk's words only, but "B" just didn't get it...
He has been talking to other slaves, too. I told you a few months back (here)about finding him another girl who liked pain a bit deeper than I do for him to play with... Still thinking along those lines, although I don't know how to go about finding her. He has others request his time, and training, we will see where that goes. He trained others' subs for years. He is thinking that is may be more hassle than he wants to go into anymore, but we will see. I have been assured of always having the Alpha Slave position, so I am content.

Revelations

Long conversation with Hawk today. I learned a lot about myself.
I realized that he isn't the "end-all, be-all" I was trying to make him be. He is an addiction, he is a place that I go every few months for a "fix" when my train of thought starts going down that darker track...
I realized that I will never be as open with anyone as I was with him... Not even with him again. He hurt me too bad... He built that wall around my heart... No one will ever get that close again...
I realized, also, that no one man will ever be all that I need someone to be... And yes, I am not trying to make my happiness come from someone else... I just don't think there is a man out there that can be who I need... Jeff is damn close. Yet I still need that touch of darkness every few months... And who better for that than Hawk? Don't get me wrong. I am not saying that all D/s relationships are dark, or evil. Just that anyone who even gets close to knowing the real Hawk plays with the dark side.
Yes, I still love him, and I do wish I could be the one he could love completely. I have seen him love completely before. She is the reason it will never happen again. We are dependent on each other for certain physical and intellectual needs... Period. Friends, yes, that too. Nothing more. If he ever needed me, I would always be there, doing whatever it took to help him out. But it is not a love affair. That is never going to happen.
I could give him up, if Jeff ever got a divorce, I would give up Hawk. Some of us have the ability to lock certain doors in our minds, never to reopen them. I could close that door forever, no problem. There is no reason to do it now, though. Being with Hawk is as close to selling my soul to the devil as I want to get. It is very close. Hawk is an adrenaline rush.

Good laugh....(If you don't get it, you're too young!!)

This forward is so funny!!!

YOU WERE A LITTLE GIRL IN THE 70'S IF....

> >.you wore that rainbow shirt that was half-sleeves,
> and the rainbow went
> >up
> >one sleeve, across your chest, and down the other.
> >
> >.you made baby chocolate cakes in your Easy Bake
> Oven. You washed them
> >down
> >with snow cones from your Snoopy Snow Cone Machine.
> >
> >.you had that Fisher Price Doctor's Kit with a
> stethoscope that actually
> >worked.
> >
> >.you owned a bicycle with a banana seat and a
> basket.

> >.you even owned roller skates with metal wheels.

> >.you thought Gopher from Love Boat was cute.(Admit
> it!)
> >
> >.you had nightmares after watching Fantasy Island.
> >
> >.you had rubber boots for rainy/snowy days -
> remember Moon Boots(you
> >then
> >advanced to Duck Shoes in the 80s)?
> >
> >.you had either a "bowl cut" or a "pixie", not to
> mention the "Dorothy
> >Hamill" because your mom was sick of braiding your
> hair. How traumatic
> >when
> >people thought you were a boy.

> >.your Holly Hobbie sleeping bag was your most
> prized possession.
> >
> >.you wore a poncho, gauchos, and knickers.

> >.you begged Santa for the electronic game, Simon.
> >
> >.you had the Donnie and Marie dolls with those pink
> and purple shredded
> >outfits.
> >
> >.you spent hours out back on your metal swing set
> with the trapeze.
> >
> >.you had homemade ribbon barrettes in every
> imaginable color.

> >.you even had a pair of Doctor Scholl's sandals
> (the ones with hard sole
> >&
> >the buckle).

> >.you wanted to be Laura Ingalls Wilder really bad;
> you wore that Little
> >House on the Prairie-inspired plaid, ruffle shirt
> with the high neck in
> >at
> >least one school picture; and you despised Nellie
> Olson!

> >.you wanted your first kiss to be at the roller
> rink.
> >
> >.your hairstyle was described as having "wings" and
> you kept it "pretty"
> >with the comb you kept in your back pocket.

> >.you know who Strawberry Shortcake is, as well as
> her friends, Blueberry
> >Muffin and Huckleberry Pie.
> >
> >.you carried a Muppets or Snoopy lunch kit to
> school.
> >
> >.you and your girlfriends would fight over which of
> the Dukes of Hazard
> >was
> >your boyfriend.
> >
> >.every now and then "It's A Hard Knock Life" from
> the movie, "Annie"
> >will
> >pop into your brain and you can't stop singing it
> the whole day.
> >
> >.YOU had Star Wars action figures, too.
> >
> >.you thought unicorns were real.
> >
> >.it was a big event in your household each year
> when the"Wizard of Oz"
> >would come on TV. Your mom would break out the
> popcorn and sleeping
> >bags!
> >
> >.you even asked your Magic-8 Ball the question:
> "Who will I
> >marry...Shawn
> >Cassidy, Leif Garrett, or Rick Springfield?"
> >
> >.you completely wore out your Grease, Saturday
> Night Fever, and Fame
> >soundtrack albums.
> >
> >.you tried to do lots of arts and crafts things,
> like yarn and Popsicle
> >stick God's Eyes of those weird potholders made on
> a plasticloom.
> >
> >.you made Shrinky-Dinks!
> >
> >.you used to tape record songs off the radio by
> holding your portable
> >tape
> >recorder up to the speaker.
> >
> >.you couldn't wait to get the free animal poster
> that came when you
> >ordered
> >books from the Weekly Reader book club.
> >
> >.you learned everything you needed to know about
> girl issues from Judy
> >Blume books (Are you there God? It's me, Margaret.)
> >
> >.you thought Olivia Newton John's song, "Physical"
> was about aerobics.
> >
> >.you wore friendship pins on your tennis shoes, or
> shoelaces with heart
> >or
> >rainbow designs.
> >
> >.you had Colorforms.
> >
> >.you wanted to be a Solid Gold dancer.
> >
> >.you had a Big Wheel with a brake on the side, and
> a Sit-n-Spin.
> >
> >.you had subscriptions to Dynamite and Tiger Beat.

Receiving "The Call" again...

I might have known... Hawk sent me an IM this morning... Says he misses me, wants his slave girl... He must have ESP or something...(see Here)

This, coming after a very wonderful evening with Jeff. We went to a local Music Theatre performance of "Brigadoon", it was wonderful. My boss played MacGregor, and he has an incredible singing voice!! He majored in vocal performance in college, I knew, but I had no idea he was so wonderful! He looks very cute in a kilt, too!
Jeff bought me a copy of an old Harry Connick Jr. CD that he knew I had been wanting... And brought me another beautiful rose... *sigh*
You would think that Hawk wouldn't even enter my mind, wouldn't you?? I saw Hawk last night... But I didn't go to say hello, I didn't know if it would be the right thing to do, seeing as I was with Jeff... Hawk didn't see me...

I actually have Saturday, Sunday, AND Monday off... I'm getting ready to start cleaning house, haven't done it (other than vacuuming daily) because I was sick... So I'll probably be putting in more entries today, just to take a break from cleaning! LOL

Another stolen quiz...

I snagged another cool quiz from Carrie....





what decade does your personality live in?


quiz brought to you by lady interference, ltd


Living in the 70's? Hmm... I turned 12 in 1979... What did I know about the 70's? Although, it does seem that life has gone downhill from then... But I think that has more to do with growing up than anything... I always thought that if I ever lapsed into a coma, this would be the time period that I would be reliving in my head... My grandparents were still alive and Grandma was still my best friend... No responsibilities, really, American Bandstand was still on Saturday mornings...lol No one had broken my heart yet, I still thought I could do anything I wanted with my life... I hadn't made any stupid decisions yet... *sigh* Maybe the 70's were a good time... for me at least...

Update

Found someone to work for me last night. Finally broke down and went to the Dr.'s office, too. Gave me all the same stuff to take and if I'm not better by Wednesday she wants chest x-rays.

Planning a trip to the nearest health food store to see about natural ways to strengthen my lungs, or at least prevent me from getting this so often.

Going back to bed now, see you all later....

Rambling thoughts from the edge of death....

I wish that I could just crawl in a hole and die...
I am so sick, I hate this...
Had to work all night, it was excruciating!


Seems like the "Hawk urges" have been rumbling again.
Hopefully he will call me, soon. No one else seems to elicit the same submissive state in me that he can. No one had ever taken me to subspace except him, and with very little effort on his part, I might add. I seem to lose the rest of the world as soon as turn down that long driveway into the farm. I'm not sure that I could handle those emotions 24/7, but I'm not sure I could live without them, either.

Quizzes lifted from other people's blogs

Take the quiz: "What do you love about making love?"

Love
You are a lover of love. You love to love and be loved. You are perhaps a hopeless romantic but those are rare nowadays. Think of it as a gift. Whether you are saving yourself for that special someone or you have already found him or her. You are part of an almost extinct species of human. The kind that believe in true love... Because love is truly beautiful!


This is such a joke... I, of all people, don't believe in true love... do I???

Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

This turned out a bit more "female" than I would have expected...

Checking in...

Had a great time in the park with Jeff and my son on Friday... But later that evening I came down with bronchitis (AGAIN... Third time in six months!!)
I actually got someone else to work for me last night. Just two weeks short of a whole year without calling in sick. There is no way I could have done it. it takes all my energy just to sit here and type this. I am supposed to do the night shift tonight and tomorrow night, too, I don't know if I can or not - I am going to try, I guess.
I have decided that even though I never smoke unless I am at work, I have to quit that too. I seem to have been born with weak lungs. My grandfather had emphysema, and my father has it... I think weak lungs run in our family... Thing is, at the store where I work, you don't get breaks unless you are a smoker. (I know, goes against the grain of the rest of the world, doesn't it?)
I can't believe I got sick again... I have been eating right, getting enough sleep, taking all my vitamins, etc. And I get sick anyway! I hate bronchitis, my whole body hurts, especially my "coughing muscles"! *sigh*
Since Jeff was out of town during my birthday, he brought me the first of my presents on Friday - a sterling silver anklet to match the neck chain he gave me for Christmas. It's very pretty. He and I climbed up on the playground equipment in the park with the Son, LOL, I'm sure we were really cute. It was fun.
SRS sent me a letter saying they weren't going to do anything else about the complaint against me. That's a good thing. Everyone tells me I should move, but the Son does get along really well in this school, so I don't want to move him to a school where no one knows him... The kids would probably make fun of him if they hadn't known him for several years... No one here ever makes fun of him.
I think I am going to go lay back down... I am getting really dizzy just sitting here... Working tonight is going to be terrible... *sigh*